I wake up and ask God, "Why am I still here?"
Must I continue to suffer life and give up what’s dear?
No one cares what my fate may hold,
My illness has returned and my soul grows cold.
I hunger for happiness, but it is always out of my reach,
There is no hope left for me, though that’s not what they teach.
In the darkness, forever, I will remain,
To wallow in my self pity, hatred and pain.
I’m not the shinning star for everyone to see,
But be assured that after we are through, everyone will remember me.
As I continue on taking you all to a higher level,
Just remember if I don’t change my way, I’ll belong to the Devil.